"we must not, in trying to think about how we can make a big difference, ignore the small daily differences we can make; which, over time, add up to big differences that we often cannot foresee." -marian wright edelman.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

single white female.

i have no problem being single. none at all. 

until i see that 80% of my class is either in a relationship, engaged or married. or when i realize that i am the only college girl in my church who is without a boyfriend. or i go with my friends to the movies on a friday night only to look over and see the cute little matching couple holding hands, nuzzling noses and sharing an icee. ok, maybe i exaggerated. but seriously? it ain't always peaches and cream being single.

and then i refer to this quote. (i like quotes, can ya tell?)

"wait for the man who pursues you. the kind of man who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better woman. wait for the man who will be your best friend. wait for the man who makes you smile like no other boy makes you smile. wait for the man who praises God for you, and encourages you daily in your walk. and most importantly, wait for the man who is more in love with God than you."

face palm. i'm a dummy. i get so caught up in the world sometimes and its pressure to be labeled, to be tied with someone, to become that dependent damsel that i forget what it means to wait. to be pursued. to guard my heart and save it for that Godly man that the Lord has created for me and me alone. how wonderful is that?! a man, who from before he was even a twinkle in his daddy's eye was already created for me? and i for him?! that...that blows my mind.
 
so i remember 1 corinthians 7:32 for the time being and focus on my relationship with my God. i surround myself with Godly people who encourage me and remind me that true love really is worth the wait. i spend time with my Jesus, making our relationship stronger day by day. and realize that one day it will all make sense and God's awesome love story for me will be revealed. 

in the meantime, i put on my cute clothes, call up my girlfriends and head to town to embrace my singleness and enjoy that free time while i have it and soak it all up. cause one day, my prince will come. :)